Motivation

I was looking over my favorite authors' websites and I saw that they kenw each other and actually had a picture together and I was like wow, this really makes me want to get published just so I can have the opportunity to meet them, you know?

I don't know, it's really difficult to keep going on a novel even when you're almost done with it. It's like moving towards the end of a week at school. The end of a very long, very boring week. You become more and more tired each day, and move slower and slower as you try to get up to get in the shower. Not that writing isn't fun. Because I love it. But you eventually exhaust your story line, or at least I do and it is really frustrating. People say they like my writing or whatever, but that just puts pressure on me to actually work to finish a complete manuscript.

I think I am a little mature for my writing genre, but it's really, really tough to try and write for like the teen genre. When you are trying to write for a teen audience, it's like you are limiting yourself, because the teens won't exactly be able to take everything. It wouldn't be satisfying to write for teens anyway because half of them don't even read. It's only the ones who want to further their reach that actually read. And I am the oddball, because I don't read teen novels. I skipped from children's right to adults. Like, I'm not even kidding. When I was in 5th grade, I had already hit the teen genre and by the time I was in 7th I had discovered the adult novels.

I just find teen novels very boring. For one, it was rare when you could find a vampire book with a teen narrator. For another, they were usually bland and uninteresting because God forbid that they add some REAL LIFE consequences in there. I mean really. No one would die in those novels. It may be harsh, but people die. I don't really think anyone grasps that concept. People will die when they are fighting something. That goes for real stuff too. Did they think that the soldiers in Iraq would all come home safe?

I need to stop because I am completely off topic and I don't even remember what I had started with.

This One Is For Rae Rae.

I don't think I have told y'all about my best friend. Well, obviously, she is my best friend. She has blond hair and blue eyes and gauged ears because she's just wierd like that. She likes gory movies and death metal...I think just because she can. It makes me laugh. I think we're such good friends because we have been through alot of the same crap and we don't act like each other's mothers. We always have each other's back; I would beat the crap out of anyone who insulted Rachel, and she would do the same for me. But, we never let each other do it, because we don't want to get arrested or suspended, because then we wouldn't be able to hang out. Yeah, those are our amazing priorities. But, yeah. We are definitely best friends and we will always have each other's backs.

Ice Skating With My BFFL

Okay, so, here is what I got from ice skating:
1) A cut on my arm from when Rae rae's blade cut me when she fell on top of me (my fault really; I can't ice skate)
2) A really sore leg from my second fall
3)laughed at because I couldn't stay on my feet.
4) An odd sense of closeness with Rae rae.

That had to be one of the funnest experiences of my life, I am telling you. I have never really had so much fun. Rae rae kept trying to get me to let go of the wall...so I grabbed her hand and eventually it turned purple because I had a death grip on her. I got pretty good...until I flipped out and decided to stop. I couldn't feel my nose or my arm, because Rae Rae got me pretty good. Then, all three of them (Rae's sister and her friend) ganged up on me to get me away from the wall. That was just flat out mean. And then these really cute guys showed up and I was really not wanting to embarass myself in front of them so I stopped. Rae Rae just had to give me her pouty face so I got back out there again. What did I learn from all of this?

That I have no center of gravity whatsoever.

Irritating People

Okay, I have so much pent up irritation that I have to say something. I wore Hollister to school for the first time today and some girl who hangs out with my friends started yelling at me. Calling me all this wierd stuff like traitor, and a 'Holly' or someone who wore Hollister. And that really bothered me. Not that she was calling me names, but that she thinks that her opinion matters to me. I want people to know that I dress how I please, and that you are entitled to your opinion. But I also want you to know that I don't care. Honestly, if you have something to say, don't say it, because sometimes my temper gets the better of me and you don't want to be on the recieving end of that. But, yeah, that was really irritating. I just hope she doesn't do it again. I need to focus on school without all these other distractions.

My Writing

This is for Winged Ham Ham, because she was reading something and I want her to understand... That little short story is from a novel that I am currently working on and the male character is my favorite. I have never really liked my characters (especially not my main one) but this guy is amazing. He is everything I would want...plus or minus a few attributes that no one in this current reality could have. Haha. Anyway, yes I hate the main character, Ham Ham, but I love the guy that is with her. He is the coolest ever. Now, I will let you read the rest of the story tomorrow, because you will know everything you ever wanted to about my favorite character.

Lately

So...haven't really posted in while. What has happened lately...hmm. Well, I am officially addicted to a character by the name of Anita Blake. She was created by Laurell K. Hamilton, and aside from the screwed up personal life, I would love to be Anita. She works with the police, carries all the weapons she wants, raises the dead, not mention has hot vampire boyfriends... Ha. My life isn't that exotic, which really is a bummer. I would love a hot vampire boyfriend any day. Especially if he looks like Jean-Claude. I swear, that Anita Blake comic series is going to kill me, because it is turning the first novel into a series of 12 graphic novels and the artwork is absolutely amazing. I wish I was able to draw like that. I am actually going to post some samples. The first edition is in hardcover and it cost me 20.00 but it was the best buy ever. Anyway, if I could be any character that I read about, Anita Blake would be it, so read the Laurell K. Hamilton Anita Blake, vampire hunter series. It's my daily dose of out of this world fantasy.

TO: Wingedhamham

You have a hilarious blog. I was laughing so hard when I read it and I was overwhelmed because I really don't have time right now to comment on all of your hilarious posts. My favorite is the fat moments one. I already told you I know exactly I mean.

My Homies

This is for my friends whom I love immensely. I think that they know how much I appreciate them, but this is to confirm that they ROCK MY SOCKS OFF! (Not literally.) But yeah, I love you guys, even though half of you will never read this, it makes me feel really good to tell y'all how cool you guys are!

Love,
CurbxStomp

School

Okay, so I definitely love school, like a total nerd. But, I do hate school because you have to get up so early. I love learning new things...if I'm awake enough to learn them. History is so interesting because you learn things that influence our societies today, and I find it awesome. I also love yearbook staff because you get to interact with your school, just like being on a sports team...and it looks really good on your college transcript.